Josiah Abram McMahan

I pretty much blog only 5 times a year now, so I figured one of those should be dedicated to little Josiah. The posts on pregnancies and my babies first years are basically the only ones i go back read...and i love to go back and read them!

Induction Day!
We went in way earlier than normal...5:00am. Why? Because my dad had to leave town that day at 1:30pm and since all of my kids have been born at the same time of day (because we go to the hospital at the same time with each birth) I figured i could "predict" it to be born around noon-ish if we went in at 5:00 and everything went like it had with my previous 3 experiences.

So we got there at 5:00am and I hadn't progressed any since my previous appointments. Awesome. Maybe this one was going to take longer.

Got the Epi first thing - which was by far the easiest one I've gotten - then started the pitocin and the waiting game. My dad kept asking the nurses if I was progressing and yall, for some reason it seemed much slower this time around!

It was noon and I had only gone from a "2" to a "4". My dad was disheartened because it sure felt like I wasn't going to make it in time before he had to leave. I was also a little bummed.

So that was at noon. Then TWENTY minutes later I started feeling crazy pressure and sure enough I had completely progressed in 20 minutes! and then 20 minutes later, Josiah entered the world! He has the cord wrapped a little but nothing too big of a deal. and he was perfect.

(my dad made it!)

My favorite part of having kids is watching Jason with them right when they are born. He cries every time, is completely speechless, and it is such a beautiful picture I have in my mind that will never be erased with all 4 kids.

Coming Home
The kids stayed at my parents house for a few days and so, of course, Jason and I went on a "date" to Olive Garden the night we came home from the hospital. It's a tradition. :)
I have felt surprisingly good! This recovery was actually easier than Adelynn which was encouraging.

I will say 4 kids under the age of 5 is a lot. Noah and Lincoln are completely independent in the car as far as buckling themselves and such - which helps - but getting places is challenging! I think I'm starting to get the hang of it. Josiah is fairly easy which is a blessing.

Josiah at Home
The little guy has done great at night! He is fussy in the day a lot, but sleeps all night with a feeding at 3:00-ish and another around 6:00. He goes right back to sleep and we generally get up between 8-8:30. Not bad. The other amazing thing is he already takes a long nap when all 3 other kids do! All 4 kids sleep from about 1-4. Josiah has joined this routine consistently for the past 4 days now.
He was already back to his birth weight in the first week (7.6) and his height is in the 50% at 21".
He nurses and I give him bottles when it's more convenient. He was struggling to nurse well but has gotten over that now. I probably won't nurse long. I actually say I'm stopping everyday and go back and forth. But I'm still going as of now.

Kids With Josiah
The boys have been great! And I thought we would have trouble with Adelynn but she has been great too! I think mainly in part because she plays with her brothers all day. Which is also reason #875 I don't want Lincoln to start Kindergarten next year.
It helps a lot that it's nice outside. All 3 kids just play out in the back during the day for hours while I nurse or attend to Josiah - or clean the house - or just get some alone time. I'm so thankful they are close in age and like playing together! But you should see the older 3 at the end of every day. They are total smelly dirtballs - Adelynn being the worst. It actually warms my heart. :)

Upcoming Challenges
Jason leaves for West Africa a month from today...then heads to Kansas team camp right after returning from Africa. June could be rough.
Jason's parents are taking all three big kids to their house for a week of all of that which will be AMAZING. I plan on sleep training Josiah during that time. Fun for all.

We Have a Name!

I had my 36 week appointment today and I am already progressed (2cm/50%) which is more than I've ever been at this stage with any of the other kids.
The way I've felt the past few weeks, I'm not surprised.

We set the induction date (those that know me know this is how we do) for Monday, April 28. So unless he decides to come before then, we're 27 days out!

Well, 27 days out and we have a name. This by far took us longer than our other 3 children - not even a close race - but praise the Lord we have a name we love that it is rich in meaning. And of course, it wasn't any of our originals we threw around most of pregnancy.
We have always chosen names based on meaning first, then if we actually like the way it sounds last. The meaning is critical to us. We have known most of pregnancy what the middle name would be and I truly felt it spoken to me as validation in my first class of Perspectives this year (yall I started tearing up and got all emotional - theme of my life in that class lately).
But here was our tentative "list" we had running for the past few months (except for the name that we chose that crept it's way on the list just a few weeks ago):

Silas
Jonah
William
Studd (as a middle, after C.T. Studd - look him up)
Lucas
Judah (I didn't like because it sounded too much like "Judas" to me)

And then this whole pregnancy Lincoln has been dead set on: Brayton (he said he made it up??)
Noah at one point told Jason's mom: "I don't know what we are naming it yet, but I think mom and dad might have decided on Jesus??"
Ha. That kid.

So the winner????
Josiah Abram McMahan

Josiah was the youngest King (became king at just 8 years old) and ended the era of evil kings by deciding to bring the kingdom of Judah back to God. He led his kingdom under major reforms that returned them to favor with the Lord after years and years and years of disobedience...and he accomplished all of this at a very young age. He also died young - at age 31, but served God faithfully all of his years. The Hebrew meaning of Josiah is "Jehovah has healed".

Then in Genesis 12:1-3, God reveals His purpose through His promise, where He chooses one nation to reach all nations through Israel - led by Abram. I have always known if we had another boy this name would be incorporated to some degree. Abram means "exalted father" and it is who God chose to start Hid mission of reaching the world.

Thus our prayer for Josiah Abram is that he can follow Jesus at an early age and be a leader among those around him. We pray the Lord will make him bold in his convictions and give him a heart to reach the nations for Christ and be a disciple-maker.

Can't wait to meet Josiah Abram!

Updates on the Littles

I know I don't blog on here nearly as much as I used to (which is fine by me) but one of the reasons I love having this is to go back and look at old posts on the kids and how much they have grown! I sat here the other night with all 3 kids and they squealed and giggled at all the old pictures of them...it was precious. So this post is dedicated to doing a little catch-up.

Adelynn (22 months):
This girl is spunky. Her personality is the girl version of Lincoln - independent, verbal, social, entertainer, and strong-willed.  She is at the point where she wants to do everything her brothers do and doesn't seem to recognize (or care) that she is not even 2 years old yet.
* Her verbal skills amaze us. She has been "talking" since Christmas, but her use of sentences has exploded. It is crazy seeing such a little thing talk and communicate with us in a legible manner. Lincoln was slow to develop verbal skills, but not this girl. I think it's part of her desire to "keep up" with them.
* She doesn't mind being left places at all which is a blessing (Noah was the opposite!). She loves going to church and knows exactly where her room is - and of course insists on strolling in their by herself without holding my hand. She likes being left at the gym, Bible study, and gets crazy excited to stay with both sets of grandparents.
* The girl is ready to be potty trained which blows my mind and is a phase I'M not ready for yet. She has gone potty a few times and tells us before she is about to go (by which I tell her to go ahead and "go" and then I change her!). I'm of the camp that I don't potty train until you can undress/dress yourself and do it with little to no assistance. Especially with new baby coming, it's just way more work until they can independently do those things (imo). So she's staying in diapers for now. When she asks to go on potty, I let her, but just for fun.
* She loves to color, sing, dance, play swords, play babies, and do anything her brothers do! She now knows the first part of the chorus of "Let it Go" (thanks to her brothers) and belts it out like no other - it's hilarious.
* She loves to pray which is the sweetest thing ever. She prays for her baby dolls which melts my heart.
* She's a mam's girl - I finally got one! She loves doing anything I do - especially the things I do to get ready - which results in her loving to get her hair done, put on shoes (which she can do all by herself now!), and making sure she has a bow in. She loves snuggling with me and has a hard time going to bed if I'm not there to put her down.
* She's a sleeping champ like her brothers. Goes to bed about 8:30 and wakes up between 8:30-9:00. She takes a nap when the boys do for about 4 hours (used to be 3 hours, but past month they have been long and I have to wake her up).
* She has started showing defiance when she doesn't get her way. She will have a stare down with you (hard not to laugh) and if she gets a spanking, she doesn't cry but immediate hides her face in her hands for about 3 minutes straight. It's kind of funny. Then she hugs you and says "sowwy". She doesn't have too many tantrums yet but with that strong will, I know they are coming!!!!!

Noah (4 years old):
* Now this boy has stolen my heart as of the past few months or so! He has turned a corner from the tantrums and such and has taken on such a sweet, compliant spirit lately. He has great interest right now in the stories of Jesus and how to follow Him which has been an absolute joy to watch and grow.
* He is still his quirky, squirmy, odd little self which makes him incredibly unique. He has become more social and loves playing with kids his own age. He loves going to classes and is super excited about going to pre-school next year (which is where he has changed some - I always thought it would be a struggle). He doesn't just love learning school stuff to the extent that Lincoln does, but LOVES learning through play, stories, and hands-on things. This kid can PLAY.
* I'm not joking - Noah knows almost every frequently played commercial jingle on TV. It's so weird.
* Him an d Adelynn have become close. They can play together for hours, which i attribute to Noah being so kind and patient with her. I love watching their relationship develop.
* He is an electronic whiz. He recently ordered something off Ebay all by himself (which we returned...and passcode protected). This morning we heard him talking to "Siri" telling her "I'll give you fifty bucks if you give me that frozen toy???" Not joking.
* Noah still naps for 3 hours a day but is a night owl like Jason.
* His love tank gets full by snuggling with him in a movie, taking him to pick out a new toy, or letting him stay the weekend with his grandparents.

Lincoln (5 years old):
* He's been in a little bit of a tough phase, but one that makes sense developmentally. Basically he's so stinking big for his age and prefers to play with older kids, but he's still 5; this amounts to some frustration at times because he wants to act more independently than he can for a 5 year old. We've had to fight some battles with this independence. It's a hard line helping him foster it, but also making sure he's SAFE!
* He still takes a nap most days for a couple of hours. But the MINUTE he wakes up, he runs to the window to see if his friends are home from school so he can go out and play with them.
* Playing basketball/football for hours with his friends down the street FILLS HIS LOVE TANK - my social one.
* He LOVES school - which is no surprise and is so giddy about starting kindergarten next year (I am not).
* He has been this way since he was a baby, but he still considers most people his friend - regardless their age. For instance, most of the Tiger basketball team are his buddies, and he tells us that him and Ky Madden and Bobby Portis (razorback bball players) are his friends and that they "talk". He also considers himself to have become "good friends" with Marcus Monk, one of Jason's players older brothers. It's hilarious hearing him talk about these older guys like they are the same age. Lincoln's just a hard one to reign in and remind him that he is FIVE.
* He is still obsessed with all things basketball. He regularly watches college and pro games with Jason, knows more players than I do (and of course their numbers), and has a good understanding of the game. It will be fun the day he starts playing!
* He is NOT a night owl! Lincoln absolutely wears out. Makes me nervous for kindergarten next year. I predict he comes home and takes a nap. :)

And then in about 40-44 days, comes this little guy! Still no name. Kind of stressing me out now. Ha.

Bentonville Basketball

And the really cool article feature by CBS Sports MaxPreps!

Adelynn is sitting in my lap going "I wanna watch Daci (daddy) and Meek (Malik)!"

Awesome season Tigers! Excited for the upcoming ones!

Quotes

Just going over some reading of what God's been teaching me this semester and pulled out some quotes over the past 5 weeks that have impacted me...thought I would share:

"People who do not know the Lord ask why in the world we waste our lives as 'missionaries'. They forget that they, too, are expending their lives...and when the bubble has burst they will have nothing of eternal significance to show for the years they have wasted." Nate Saint

"The mark of a great church is not its seating capacity, but its sending capacity." Mike Stachura

Passion = whatever a person is willing to suffer for.

A person who apostolic passion plans to go but is willing to stay if the Lord so directs.

"If we as a church are disobedient, it is not ultimately the cause of God and the cause of world missions that will lose; we will lose. We can be drunk with private concerns and indifferent to the great enterprise of world evangelization, but God will simply pass over us and do His great work while we shrivel up in our little land of comfort." John Piper

"The Gospel is only good news if it gets there in time." Carl Henry

"I am mobilizing martyrs these days...What I am asking you parents to do this Saturday at our church is to bring your children to the Muslim Awareness Seminar to instill in them a mindset that will enable them to die for Jesus someday. So don't bring your kids if you don't want that to happen." John Piper

"Having seen all of this, you can chose to look away, but you can never say again, 'I did not know'. William Wilberforce

Too often we read the Bible like it is about us - a self-help manual, if you will - when in reality it is about God. God is the main character of the Bible and He exists solely, exclusively to  reveal and to radiate His glory.

Psalm 147:4 says "He calls the stars by name..."
There is an estimated 200 billion stars which means, if we were to name them, it would take over 6,000 just to shout out each one of the stars names.

The Bible predicts the future like no other book: Jesus Himself fulfilled over 300 prophesies alone.

"Missions exists because worship doesn't." (Piper) Our motivation of doing "missions" is to bring God the greatest glory.

Man was created and told to "rule and go global" (Gen. 1:28) in order to take back the "Kingdom" (that Satan invaded/invades) as image-bearers of God.
              - Adam and Eve were the 1st appointed toward the "take back the Kingdom" movement
              - After the flood, God launched the next major "take back the Kingdom" movement through Abram

Many people have this picture of becoming a Christian:
     Jesus saves your drowning soul from the raging waters and plops you onto a "cruise ship" of such where there's easy sailing, good food (ie. potluck church dinners), constant fellowship and community with others who have been saved, lots of laughs and good times, comfortable living spaces with each other and nice, wholesome Christian entertainment...separated from other "boats" where people don't live along with your beliefs and ideals, etc.
In actuality, when you become a Christian:
Jesus saves your drowning soul from the raging waters and plops you onto a BATTLESHIP with the most powerful commanding officer in existence - your creator and savior - that continues to shape and mold you into His army that is currently engaged in the greatest war of all time.

The war is raging...whether you acknowledge it or not. What is your role in the war?
   - At home, using finances and time to supply the army?
   - Engaging on the frontlines?
   - Being help as a prisoner of war by the enemy, enslaved in your addictions and shortcomings?
   - Are you protesting the war, claiming it is unjust and shouldn't be existing?
   - Simply living your life in denial as if it isn't happening...nothing about the way you're living testifies to a world at war?

John Piper - "Don't Waste Your Life" (8 minutes)

Risking it all and following Jesus - A Future City - David Platt

New Year & Busyness

First off, I am really excited about this year. I know this sounds cliche and maybe corny, but albeit - I am anticipating seeing the Lord move/work in a way I've yet to experience this year. I say that in full awareness that sometimes He works out of pain, but whatever the venue of His light and purpose being illuminated this year, I'm ready to watch Him show off.
I guess if I had a "resolution" this year it would simply be less of me, more of Him.
Sounds hypocritical to say as I sit here writing a BLOG (about yours truly, nonetheless), but in all seriousness I think if I could sum up this past year it would be God revealing the yuckiness of my heart (selfishness, laziness, unkind words, comparing to others - not Him, self-righteousness, bitterness, lack of grace, self-promotion, and so forth) and the areas where I chose exalting self over Him. And I'll be honest - it's an ongoing process with me where I feel like a failure more than a victor. But that's the good part...that it's not about me obtaining victory but relinquishing my life to the VICTOR.
His patience is humbling and brought me to tears this morning as I contemplated it.

And you know what one of the greatest truths that has been a theme over this past year is? It's that the Bible is not about me. Who would have thought!
A teacher this morning summed it up perfectly to what I have been learning this morning:
The bible is ONE book, with ONE hero, who is on ONE mission. And that mission is to seek and save the lost, bringing all nations to worship and glorify Him as Lord.
And then HE invites us - His children - to partake in that mission alongside Him...to die to self (our dreams, pursuits, fame, wealth, etc) and surrender to Him for the sake of reaching all nations for Him. It is themed from Abraham in Genesis to Revelations how God blesses his people so that they can, in turn, be a blessing to the nations.
I loved this question from this morning's teaching:
"What if we utilized our western wealth to gather world worship?"
What if we used our blessings (which we all have abundantly) to bless the nations and tell them of God's redemptive power?

Anyway, I'm not really sure why I sat down to write this other than sometimes I can't help but write thoughts down that seem like they might explode within me (I'm a nerd), but I truly am crazy excited and bursting with anticipation for what lies ahead.
I know one thing: this year is going to be busy. And I know a lot of people knock being "busy" and say you need to free your schedule more and experience freedom from busyness, but I'm choosing to embrace it this year (if you hear me complain about it - smack me please). Between raising kids, being a wife (a good one, ha), discipling, being discipled, basketball season, taking a weekly college missions course (with homework that actually gets graded and class projects), mission trips, summer overseas adventures, community group, supporting the husband and their basketball ministry, one child that starts kindergarten in august (oh my!) and let's not forget the 4th child being born at the end of April (double OH MY) - this year is sure to be full of some unexpected craziness, to say the least.
Ha. All of those welcome ample opportunities for the Lord to continue to strip me down.
Here we go!